i wonder why.
today.
just now.
i pick up the dress.
the one you gave me.
and i tore it by accident.
and i started sewing it.
something i never thought.
i would do.
in a million years.
i had a strange connection.
with that dress.
every time i look at it.
i feel loved.
it fees as if you are here.
with me.
as i am sewing it.
as clumsy as i am.
i pricked my finger.
it hurts.
just the same as i am hurting now.
i wonder..
maybe i was in the wrong.
whatever it is.
i am humiliated.
maybe by myself.
and i have no guts.
to face you.
let it be this way.
for now or forever.
i cannot carry on.
i miss you.

til next tym~adios!