ahhhhh dear diary!

why does he have to message me now??
for the past hour or two......
i did forget about him!
i really did!
of course the things i did to forget about him.
is despicable!
ermm... not that despicable but i think you would understand..
but now he message me, my mind stopped everything!
i just want to run to him and talk to him.
why am i feeling this way?
=(
do i really need someone else to nurse and distract me?
but i don't want someone else.
i can't see someone else.
why can't i be alone to nurse these feelings?
is it that hardd??
erik, why are you playing in my head?
why why why?
why did you message me?
i WAS strong for 2 hours!
this is frustrating.
concentrating on not thinking about him is even worse than studying for exams.
brace nura.
this is the start.
you have to endure.
then you can go through it!

sobs..