Dear diary, How can a human be so cruel? Cruelty to your own kind. Worse, cruelty to a new life. A life someone didn't get to live. Because the chance wasn't given. For it to see the world. Every night, I dream of your face. A face I will never get to see. Your small face I see. Your sweet voice I hear. Your heartbeat I feel. All in my dreams. A dream that will never ever come true. Because I gave you up. I didn't take good care of you. I didn't love you enough. I didn't pursue you because I was scared. Hence, I suffer the guilt of losing you. I suffer the misery of losing you. I hear you cry. Begging me not to leave you. All in my dreams. I never want to stop these dreams. Even though it's torturous for me. Because it's the only time I can see you. It's the only time I can feel you. It's the only time I can hold you in my arms. It's the only time I feel human. UoytsolIyrrosm'I