I'm tearing now.
I don't know why.
Things are going great.
Just that I'm Abit stressed up with school.
Okay maybe alot.
Sometimes u get too stressed till u want to speak to noone.
Like noone can ease your burden no matter how much they talk sense to u.
Even the smallest thing piss you off.
Like maybe u don't get attention from your loved ones.
Boyfriend or friends or even parents.
It sucks to feel this way cause u know u don't want to affect other ppl.
But u just can't help it.
I always try to brighten up my mood for ppl.
So they don't feel uncomfy.
In a way it's good cause u don't entertain your feelings.
In another view it's bad cause I'm just surpressing my feelings.
It might come back one day.
I don't want to affect others therefore I'm choosing to isolate.
Just for awhile to have some space from ppl who might just judge u.
I really need a break.
Like a holiday or something to make myself happier.
Haix I will try to cheer up tmr.

Til next tym~adios!

ive upset someone.
and i feel bad.
cause the whole thing happened.
so fast!
i cant even rem.
how it happened.
but one thing for sure.
its my own stupidity.
but i dont know why she is so angry.
i really like her.
and i mean it.
she is soo nice!
and helpful.
towards me..
she has helped me alot recently.
and i cant thank her enough.
but haix.
now she is angry.
and its over something i didnt do to her.
but someone else did to me.
she did it out of care for me.
but she is ignoring me now.
and i feel weird.
i feel the pinch.
i dont know why im sorry.
i dont know anymore.
its just sad.
i feel like i lost something.
come back pleasee.
i know im an asshole.
however anyone tells me not to be too nice.
must stand up for my rights.
i still failed.
trust me ive tried a ZILLION TIMES!
and im back to square one.
you are not the first who tried to change me.
i know u dont want ppl to step all over my head.
and i appreciate all you've done.
but like i mentioned to everyone else.
i will try..
i do make an effort.
last time i just ended up smiling.
at least now i made a few comments.
its a big improvement to my character!
really!
dont be disappointed please.
haix.
i wish i know what you are thinking.
its been bothering me the whole day.
at work and at school.
=(
i feel restless.
and unhappy.

til next tym~adios!

everythings been good lately.
a good day is coming.
time to relax.
=)

sometimes happiness dont last.
there is bound to be something to make it gloomy and dark.

http://musicfreaktboney.multiply.com/journal/item/72/mixed_feelings..

http://musicfreaktboney.multiply.com/journal/item/73/teeheehee

after this entry.. my feelings too a great turn!
feeling elated now.
=))

til next tym~adios!

been so long..
i wanted to see what are the changes.
in these few months.
or rather 2 months.
instead of blogging sad stuff every other day.
well.
true enough.
i AM happier now!
things took a great turn.
im happy as it is now.
not asking for more.
hence fate cant give me lesser than now!
=))
someone's sad now..
it hurts to see him cry.
and all stressed up!
but its all turning for the better.
started to cheer up already.
=))
jiayou!
FIGHTING!!

P.S. i miss meinu.

til next tym~adios!

I had a tough time sleeping.
Even at 2am I think I was still tossing around.
I wondered what time I fell asleep.
It must have been a short while.
At 540am sharp, my eyes opened wide.
I was wide awake.
Which is weird as I'm always lazy to wake up.
I was awaken by some sounds outside my room.
My head starts to wonder strange things.
Now, I'm scared.
The room light adjacent to my room.
Seems to be switched on now.
Oh dear I'm scared I might pee now!
I set my alarm at 6am.
But I'm awake now.
What's wrong?
Tsk!
Be brave..
I'm going to take alook now..

til next tym~adios!

I know I have to sleep early tonight.
I promised someone I would.
But i've been tossing and turning.
It's 11.45pm now.
My mind is wondering elsewhere.
How can I get to sleep?
And oh..
I'm hungry. .
Very hungry.
Get to sleep.

http://multiply.com/m/item/musicfreaktboney:journal:66

til next tym~adios!

I'm happy for once.
Right this moment..
And I hope it stays till tomorrow.
Only god knows why.
=))

http://multiply.com/m/item/musicfreaktboney:journal:65

til next tym~adios!

im tired.
seriously.
of falling down.
why do i keep falling down.
despite.
the efforts ive put in.
i can say confidently.
i have put in tonnes and tonnes of effort.
and i can say confidently.
that that one thing can crush me instantly.
and i would fall down crashing even worse then before.
and.
i hate that.

http://musicfreaktboney.multiply.com/journal/item/64/falling_down_again.

til next tym~adios!