wads happening to me?
wads happening to my life?
it seems so messed up...
have bin out on 2 consecutive days..
tues & wed (yest)..
go back sqs do e drama & dance.
im putting all my efforts.
tt i feel exhausted & lethargic.
yest got a bad news.
my uncle is alr on his death bed.
haix..
took the day off and visit him..
a v v v v sad experience.
after tt i stil sacrifice my time go back sqs.
sumtimes i feel wadever i do.
goes unappreciated.
the students r making last min attitudes!
and i simply cant stand it.
i mean fer the past 2 days i have bin gg straight frm werk.
to their camp.
bloody giving my all.
to make sure dey perform well.
gg back at 12midnight!!
getting all the scolding frm parents!
and who the hell appreciates wad im doin!
ive exhausted all my energy.
and yest was the limit.
one by one make me feel so F*d up!
if u are tired.
arent i???!!
feeling sleepy all the time at work.
yest while dey perform their "BEST"!
i dono y i felt so weak..
bren was telling me im an idiot to shed tears.
haix..
but i cant control myself.
i dono y im feeling this way.
jux felt constrained and breathless..
and today at werk.
i broke down.
came to werk feeling tired.
saw my revised werk on the table.
and quite pissed at wad was written der.
im so not in the bloody mood.
there was so much of day-dreaming..
and tears jux start to collect.
it came so suddenly i dint realise i start,
to cry lyk a baby!
argh.
i dint noe where dos tears came frm.
and y it came.
i jux felt lyk a weakling.
hav been moody all this whole while.
aldo happy times are alot.
wen i enjoyed myself so much.
happy times cum and go.
the one that stays are.
bad times.
stressed times.
how i wish i was jux a young innocent girl.
that i used to be.
wen i was sec 1...
ignorant of everythin arnd me..
jux me and myself.
i tink im starting to go back to my old self.
i dun wana mix arnd tt much.
i starting to feel the mood.
to be anti-social.
i guess wen it all gets back.
pple will be shocked to see the new me.
or rather.
the old me.
til next tym~adios!