Friday, March 22, 2013
Friday, March 22, 2013
dear diary,
it has been a long while.
a really really longgg while since i had so much fun.
since i laughed so hard.
and really enjoyed myself.
i don't know what good deed i have done the previous days.
that i deserved today.
i felt so happy.
=)
although it was just a simple day.
but it was so much fun.
i was happy.
i hope my happiness stays. =)
ireallythankyoufortoday.
Friday, March 22, 2013
Dear diary,
I'm trying to act cool now.
I'm telling myself, psycho myself into believing.
That I am and can be happy.
I'm doing a good job so far.
I might just believe that I was happy.
I tried it yesterday.
After he told me that he won't be happy if I wasnt.
Ours is a complicated relationship.
So I'm doing this for us.
I pretend that I don't care.
But I actually do.
It sucks when you realise that fact at the end of the day.
But I want to keep trying.
As long as I can.
After that evening, I blew up.
And said things I shouldn't have.
I felt horrible.
I think that short chapter was something I want closure on.
I don't want to think of it.
Period.
But when I can't help it and I do.
I turn to him.
I just felt the need to have him around.
So i can forget things.
Even as a friend.
Sometimes, I just wish I can go relive.
Those happy days.
Imissthosedayswithjustusandourkids.=(