yesterday.
was like any normal day.
i broke down again.
this time worst.
but somehow.
the breaking down this time.
made me stronger.
i realised to love is not to possess.
i learnt to let go.
slowly.
soon enough.
i will let go fully.
only then i will no longer suffer.
i used to think my life is miserable.
in fact i think its a new beginning for me.
i might meet someone who can heal my pain.
eventually.
someone who can be with me.
no matter how tough the obstacle can be.
in the future.
when the love is strong enough.
i always believed.
nothing can shake a relationship.
if the love is strong.
i guess mine is still too young.
i never asked to fall in love with a chinese.
i never asked for this ending.
guess its predestined.
but looking back.
i would still go into this relationship.
if i was given another chance.
despite the pain.
i would only change it to be stronger.
if in future.
i still fall in love with a chinese.
i still wouldnt hold back.
we only live once.
i must know.
these feelings cant be controlled.
its there.
no matter how hard i try to deny.
now that its better.
and im getting the hang of it.
i will try my best to forget everything.
its the only way out.
phew.
a big relief off my back.
now i can concentrate on my new life.
which i should have started.
on 27oct last year.
whenever i decide to start a new life.
he never fail to stop me.
but when its him.
i never fail to fail to stop him from stopping me.
i never knew why.
but oh wells.
its over.
the pain has subsided.
im glad.
new life way to go!!!
til next tym~adios!