26 December 2008.
i picture that day.
coming.
in my dreams.
in my thoughts.
its disconcerting.
to my mind.
totally.
took over.
i picture it.
clearly.
i would be alone.
tears welling down my cheeks.
as the day passed painfully.
right from the wee hours.
the morning of 26th Dec 2008.
the reminiscence.
the pain.
the happiness.
recollected.
all in a swift.
i nvr imagined.
it to be that way.
at least not a year ago.
or afew months back.
now.
its different.
i can feel the pain now.
i hope i will just.
drop dead.
or seriously ill.
on that day.
or a few days before.
just like two years back.
at least i will not be.
so concentrated on the agony.
hmm.
i can pass it.
i have to believe in myself.
aside to that.
on a lighter note.
i finished the book.
twilight this morning.
at 3am.
i forced myself to finish it.
coz i am gg to watch the movie.
tonight.
actually i dint really force myself.
i was addicted to read further.
the characters were just.
so real.
i could feel the intensity.
the pain of their love.
the author of this book.
is totally awesome.
i crouched my body into a ball.
held my breath.
sink my fingers in between my teeth.
as the chapter goes on.
it feels as if i was there.
in the book.
in the situation they were in.
i never felt more like that.
with the other books i have read.
this was an exception.
i am sure the movie.
would be gr8!
jux that i don’t really like.
the ending.
however.
i was so touched.
by the nobility of their love.
it was so pure.
and so full of sacrifices.
he being a vampire.
who fell in love with a human.
he loves her so much.
he fought his animal instincts.
which tells him to devour her.
everytym he is around her.
the smell of her hair, her blood, her breath.
her every move.
tempted him to madness.
but he still fought it.
to keep her alive.
and bella, his loved one.
she too wanted to sacrifice her human form.
just to be with him.
just so they can be together for eternity.
they just found each other less than a year then.
while many i know.
cant sacrifice a tiny bit.
for their love one.
she wanted him to suck her blood.
to satisfy his longing, his thirst.
and to be a vampire.
just like him.
and live together for eternity.
then again.
this is just a storyline.
it cant be real.
if it was real.
i like bella.
would definitely.
sacrifice my human self.
to be with the man i love.
of coz it should not be beyond.
my conscience.
that made me really.
take my hat off her.
i feel like i am living in a fairytale.
i am soo looking forward to tonight’s show.
and i hope i can bring fifi out tmr.
that would make my day.
enough of rattling.
time to werk!
=)
til next tym~adios!