Sunday, February 17, 2013
Sunday, February 17, 2013
dear diary,
finally, weeks of braving it all.
my body gave in.
i fell sick yesterday night.
i haven't been sleeping even though i forced myself to.
i had a bad cough.
and a high fever.
and i don't know why my stomach hurt so bad.
i feel like a sickly old woman.
but here i am writing to you again.
because i can't help thinking of him.
everyday, without fail.
i tried to think of other stuff but i simply can't.
i'm dying to know how he is doing.
but i made myself and i made him a promise.
so i should keep it right?
i can't sleep.
my stomach churns like mad.
its so painful i might think i have some stomach disease or something.
life had been so horrible.
and it just keeps coming.
when can i get out of this?
how long am i going to be sick now..
its all because of the things in my head.
and how badly i missed you.
i'm lovesick.
a one-sided love.
iamhopeless.