OMG OMG!
i tink i got myself into trouble!
argh!!
met my long tym fren recently..
and he seems...
oh shit!
i cant bring myself to spit it out..
pple say love is unpredictable!
yeah it certainly is!!
shit shit..
dono who to tell oso..
emotions all over the place!
i tink he is...
but im not...
hate den dis hafta start all over again!
i nvr lyk wen im in dis situation..
i'll jux get frust written all over my face man.
cant concentrate...
tink of a way to squeeze myself out!
damn!
hate it hate it!!
god plz let it be over soon!!!
or let me jux disappear so i wont have to settle dis!
haix..
well, tink positive!
tmr gg celeb yz & my bdae!
w the band members!!
whee!!
haven seen dem in a long time..
miss dem muacks!
esp missing XL!!
haha..
dono y..
my big sister!
hehe.
so looking forward to tmr!!
and plus!
im looking forward to mit the other 3 ANGELS!
SO LONG haven seen u guys man..
miss ya sooo muuchh! muacks!
hahaha...
givin all my loved ones hugs & kisses!!
hehe..
now amel is no longer working.
i wonder how she's gonna mit us..
nvm, we'll find a way..
tmr's gonna start work again.
sian.
ive taken a total of 3 off day inclusice of hari raya.
i tink its gonna look bad on my report man.
oh heck la.
since i dun get incentives for working ots.
and wad not.
and taking leave is oni essential.
man i nid a break man!
i love the pple.
jux the work.
and i noe its common.
but well, i haven get used to it jux yet.
oh ya, yest went to celeb hari raya w my grandpa...
my heart felt lyk its being crushed lookin at the state my grandpa is in.
he looks so weak...
i wish i could do sumthin..
every year during hari raya (his 2nd year celebrating raya der),
his whole family would be der.
i tink he jux freign ignorance.
i noe he is hurt inside..
jux dun wana let it be known.
all the while.
he bend his head down.
even while eating.
i tried to make him rest on the chair.
wen i pulled him up.
i saw the saddness in his eyes.
my grandpa act have the nicest set of eyes.
its not normal black.
there is a certain uniqueness abt it.
but wad i saw tt day was totally diff.
i saw misery in his eyes.
i noe he wans so much to be w us.
and rty den, my mum did have queries.
whether to bring him home.
i fought all i could fer my beloved grandpa.
but she stil have her doubts.
i was v angry.
is she setting an example fer me here??
wtf.
i realised how much i loved my grandpa den.
the worst part is the parting part.
how i had to tel him i had to leave.
he jux nodded his head not looking up.
wen my mum asked whether he wans to follow us home.
he said no.
i noe he knows tt is nvr gg to happen.
haix..
i seek forgiveness frm him.
much as i tried to control it.
tears welled in my eyes.
i dint wan him to noe i feel sad.
he is oredi devastated.
but i couldnt help it.
oh god.
help me bring my grandpa home.
i beg,
change her mind.
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til next tym~adios!