Sunday, December 28, 2008
Sunday, December 28, 2008
i dont noe.
28/12/08.
half a year apart.
wen i heard the news.
i dint feel anything.
both mother and son.
sigh.
after i got home.
i just couldnt sleep.
this afternoon.
i had a bad fever.
after so long.
haiz.
all the bad do certainly come in a rush.
mum waited fer me at the door.
she said.
aunt was in bad condition.
we are gg to visit her after dawn.
we both.
cant seem to picture.
how we would feel.
i can feel.
she too.
cant sleep.
we chatted fer awhile.
talked abt aunt.
how she seems to be struggling fer her life.
now.
and we are not by her side.
haiz.
mum even said.
wen we visit later.
we should bring some money.
just in case.
something happen to her.
and we could.
prepare for her.
coz.
we are her closest kin.
even though she has a daughter.
tt she still cant accept till now.
aunt really.
suffered alot.
wen she lived.
her only son.
passed away.
6months back.
leaving her heartbroken.
i guess.
tt is why now.
she no longer wants to fight on.
i will miss you aunt.
i told mum.
she shouldnt talk tt way.
and she says.
"this is bound to happen"
and so.
we both set off to sleep.
i noe she is restless as well.
she woke up twice.
within.
1/2 an hour.
to call aunt's neighbour.
to ask abt aunt.
and finally.
we both tried to get some sleep.
i really tried to sleep.
but i cant.
i start imagining things.
and soon enuff.
the phone rang.
i really wished.
no one picked up the phone.
i tried to ignore it.
wishing tt it wasnt bad news.
after awhile.
it was silent.
den mum began knocking on my door.
aunt is gone.
forever.
i stil dint shed a tear.
i dont noe why.
mayb i shed alot this afternoon.
wad w my bad fever.
and emotional feelings.
i cant shed any now.
i wish i was beside her.
i wish i stayed on.
wen i visited her last few days.
at least i am w her.
wen she leave.
i alw had regrets.
im feeling so sucky now.
aunt.
i hope you rest well.
i'll be coming for you soon.