Sunday, March 17, 2013
Sunday, March 17, 2013
dear diary,
how do one react to this:
i don't want to see you.
heart squashed..
hopes crashed..
the hopes built high up.
came crashing in one second.
you feel at the bottom again.
how do you pace yourself up again?
whatdoido.imsquashed.
Sunday, March 17, 2013
dear diary,
i haven't been feeling upset recently.
i kept busy.
although i text him most of the time.
cause doing so made me forget things.
made me forget my horrible dream.
made me learn how to smile even for awhile.
genuinely.
i really don't know how to survive this without him.
my darkest secret will remain in me forever.
the hurt and pain i endured.
i sometimes think of it no matter how hard i try to avoid.
the guilt i get from thinking of it disgust me.
but i think its a burden i have to carry alone.
for the rest of my life.
sometimes i still tear thinking of how scary it is.
its been close to a month.
how time flies.
but the hurt and pain stays.
guiltfollowsyouaroundforlife.