Monday, December 08, 2008
Monday, December 08, 2008
i wonder why.
today.
just now.
i pick up
the dress.
the one
you gave me.
and i
tore it by accident.
and i started
sewing it.
something i
never thought.
i
would do.
in a
million years.
i had a strange
connection.
with that
dress.
every time i
look at it.
i feel
loved.
it fees as if
you are here.
with me.
as i am
sewing it.
as
clumsy as i am.
i
pricked my finger.
it hurts.
just the same as i am hurting now.
i wonder..
maybe i was in the
wrong.
whatever it is.
i am
humiliated.
maybe by
myself.
and i have
no guts.
to
face you.
let it be this way.
for
now or forever.
i cannot carry on.
i miss you.
til next tym~adios!
Monday, December 08, 2008
i am depressed.
i havent hated someone.
this much.
today.
i express my hate.
i hate you.
how i wish.
you would jux.
disappear.
from the face of earth.
how can you treat me.
lyk shit?
there is a bond bet us!
its impossible.
to see how u treat me this way.
haix.
i really hate you.
get away from me.
i nvr wana talk to you EVER.
i wish
someone is here to share my pain.
i wish
you were here to listen to me rattle.
but you
arent.i shall stop dreaming.
sigh.
til next tym~adios