Thursday, December 18, 2008
Thursday, December 18, 2008
okays.
this is gg to be the 3rd entry.
in a day.
wen i dont update.
its afew days.
and wen i do.
its afew entries in a day!
oh dear.
wads w me.
but i jux got to blog it down.
happy or sad moments.
i want to read it in the future.
ppl and things tt conclude.
the ups and downs.
in my life.
hmmm.
anws.
i said my mood got abit lighter.
coz i jux rec a call!
its the call ive bin waiting for.
lyk almost forever.
finally got tt call.
i heard wad i needed.
to hear.
wad i wanted to hear.
and im happy.
=)
thank you to whoever.
you are.
tt called me today.
and made my day.
although the news.
and things said.
were not lyk OH MY GOD.
but at least it made me smile.
heex.
i haven "heex".
in awhile here.
so i guess its kind of worth the effort!
=)
thank you agains.
til next tym~adios!
Thursday, December 18, 2008
hmmm.
after days of analyzing.
i think.
i am a bad person.
i dont tell ppl how i feel.
waiting fer ppl to guess.
i get easily affected.
im too emotional.
*which i tink i can do better*
im irrational.
im asking for too much.
perfect-NESS.
i dont appreciate the goods.
i only see the bad.
in ppl.
*as much as i try to appreciate the goods,
the bad just stands out*
and i dont noe how tt is possible.
still trying to werk tt out.
im alw expecting things.
wo ppl knowing.
and wen it doesnt happen.
i get disappointed.
*tt is childish i admit*
maybe too much pampering.
from my beloved frens.
haha.
i wish for all the goodness.
and i cant accept the bad.
*tts bad*
there are good and bad things in life.
we all have to live and deal with.
and last of all.
*at least to wad i can think of right now*
i expect farrrrrrr tooooo much things.
*from some ppl**not physical things, though. just gestures*
and i think tt is darn retarded of me!
isnt tt way too much bad-ness in me?
oh dear.
im soo gg to get discriminated after this post.
but i think i deserve it.
=(
but!
my mood just lightened abit.
ill update in the next post!
til next tym~adios!
Thursday, December 18, 2008
it seems okay.
the voice.
just makes me feel comfy.
again.
but.
seems
tt sumthin is missing.
yet again.
i wish to find out.
what
tt is.
the image i picture it to be.
in my mind.
on that day.
wasnt even an inch close.
to wad really happened.
it was kinda intense act.
looks of irritation.
i can see.
i almost let.
down a tear.
i stopped it.
it
wasnt supposed to be that way.
and i felt distant.
maybe coz its just starting.
or warming up.
in bet.
things got
abit loose.
laughter.
the trails of thoughts.
the stories.
ive always adored
ppl.
who can story tell.
totally enjoyed.
=)
but.
sumhow.
after
tt.
things
doesnt feel.
lyk its okay
agains.
even now.
it dint go back to what.
it was supposed to be.
should i be thankful?
or should i have wished otherwise?
i really
dont noe wad to think.
i think...
its stil weird.
i mean maybe.
the warm up.
is not warm-ed enuff.
how i wish i have half of.
Edward Cullen's power.
to read
ppls mind.
coz i really
dont noe what you are thinking.
and im dying to noe.
and i guess vice
versa.
im tired.
and
im gg to rest.
crazy thoughts.
can make one go crazy.
2 options.
either my intuition is right.
or.
im reading too much into nothing.
im choosing the latter.
til next tym~adios!