Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
hang on there!
dont let it drop.
or ill really slap my hard.
the hardest ever!!!
comeon.
when people show u sympathy.
empathise with u.
pity u.
dont let them make u feel worst!!!!
i feel such a relief everytime i blog.
my feelings down.
especially during this difficult period.
so in future.
if i were about to make any decisions.
that might end me up like.
a miserable loser.
and i look back at my entries.
i wouldnt dare.
make that decision.
it would serve as a reminder to me.
if i want to be that miserable.
hang on!!!!!!!!!!!!
phew.
im glad.
the tears.
dint drop.
or ill suffer another painful slap.
im getting the hang of it.
=))
next.
put up the mask again.
im sure i can do a simple thing.
as to smile.
SMILE!
=)))))))))))))))))))
it hurts so bad.please dont emphatise me people.
if not please divert your attention.
to other blogs.
im only trying to make myself better here.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
oh no.
is the mask im putting on.
not thick enough?
i felt so embarrassed.
just now.
one of my colleague.
called my name.
he said..
"u look very sad."
"is everything okay?"
i was taken aback.
all these while.
i thought i have been doing well.
pretending.
looks like my acting skills.
arent good enough.
gotta work harder!
afew things i note.
to start again.
probably.
i gotta get a new watch.
this watch is hurting my eye.
and a new necklace.
seems like my precious necklace.
is nowhere to be found.
i felt a lost when i cant find it.
im sure i dint lost it outside.
probably its somewhere.
lying.
in my room or bag.
i need new stuffs.
old things bring memories.
good ones.
but bring harm to me.
carry on the pretence!
seems kinda fun though.
i just got a few hard tight slaps.
this is getting harder and harder.
til next tym ~ adios!
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
today is just another day.
i have to pull through.
im sober now.
but feeling sore.
it was a double blow.
i would slap myself real hard.
every single second i thought of him.
ouch.
it hurts really.
but i guess.
tts the bitter ending.
i have to accept.
and learn to live with it.
its weird though.
no matter how painful the impact of the slap is.
my mind never fail.
to mingle there again.
and the pain continues.
seems like my mind dont mind.
the pain from all the slapping.
=(
http://musicfreaktboney.multiply.com/journal/item/45/the_end.
til next tym~adios!