Saturday, March 09, 2013
Saturday, March 09, 2013
dear diary,
the lonesome feeling.
the depressing feeling.
the heart skipping a beat.
the frustration..
we talked.
i told him i don't know where i am heading.
i feel like i am going to lose it.
i tried very hard to keep my composure.
to keep it all together.
to smile for people.
so no one will know.
the despair i am in.
only when i am alone.
i feel it.
that's why i hate being home.
i hate being in singapore.
unless i have his company.
i cried while talking.
i don't know why.
i don't know when.
i am going to stop feeling all these.
everyone has moved on.
why haven't i?
i told him finally.
not the whole truth.
but what he wants to hear.
he doesn't need to know the details.
it will add more pain and guilt than what i feel now.
i'mscrewed.
Saturday, March 09, 2013
Dear diary,
Why do I feel like all that has happened is like a dream?
A really bad dream.
I want to wake up to 5 years ago.
And live that moment forever.
Nodirectionleadstodarknessandemptiness.